Havoc

i took a turn and got stuck inside this messed up place
i've tried my best to struggle
but it felt like i'm chained
could not get out and could not break free
been searching for a way, but it keeps getting busted
don't know what to do, but just patience is all i have.
the energy i have inside is not enough
to disintegrate myself to these
kept wondering why and what's stopping me
so i pray, i could break away

when will i set myself free from all these
all i ever wanted was to be at your service
but something went wrong
everything had changed and faded
i don't know where i went wrong
shame is all i blame
just thinking of a better day

I have kept myself trapped from this played out scheme
i gave my best thinking of a better day
but it felt like there's nothing to come
I'm about to freak out and loose my mind
been looking for some ways to conquer it all
evreything seems getting busted and keep failing
can't live like this anymore, but patience is all i have
everthing has been exhausted, kept trying it out
to break loose from all these
no matter what i do it's hindering me
all i can do now is pray to break free

Cry

cry

i don't know why i'm feeling this way
it makes me cry
i know I've been good 2 everyone but it turns out bad
and it makes me cry
in time i know things will go my way

just tell me if you still want me here
so i'll know the extent of my presence
just a wish to end this weariness in me
for the last time i would say this to you

because of you, i'm sinking down
i feel like i could die
and i don't know why
it's always just like another perfect day

Something keeps on pulling me down
And I feel like I'm losing ground,
Trying just to find my reasons
And losing sense of what is real

now i'm feeling so far away
now i'm hating you everyday
Willing to believe in something,
Forgetting to believe in me
Will I find my place in your mind
Or will I fall away in time?

Now I'm feeling so far away
And now I'm hating you everyday
it makes me cry to feel this way
but what else can i do anyway

Waiting just to see the end,
As you follow down that road again
Trying just to find your purpose,
You're fading faster everyday

Bleeding

all i ever wanted
was to be at your service
i've left myself behind
but now i'm so jaded
cause you were here and you're gone

and all i ever wanted was
to feel that i'm treasured
but i know it's never gonna happen
cause you were here and you're gone

but if you could just
let me live
let me breathe
let me have one chance to

prove myself
let me live
let me breathe
i'd bleed for you
you didn't dare to notice me
now i'm just stuck out on a line
i'd bleed for you
but you didn't care to notice me
now you're stuck on my mind

all i ever wanted was to be what you needed
i had a feeling that nothing could go wrong
but you never listen to whatever i have inside
so i'll just turn and walk away


you gave me a reason to let go
i know you're not even aware of it
i know you're still confident about things
but someday you'll realize things sooner or later.
i'm bleeding for you

Blurry

Now i see things blurry
everyone's just so fake
now i feel so empty
and it made everything so messed up
i was wondering what you're doing
i even imagine where you are
you said you're just pre-occupied
it made me feel so bad


i remember back then those better days
and your actions have inspired me
i started to feel secured and comfy.
i know everyone is changing
there's no one that's so real
but let me just know what you feel
coz i'm so clueless and burn out
and for me to make up your ending


Nobody ever told me what you feel
nobody ever told me what to do
nobody ever told me what to say
nobody ever made me feel alright

let me shove this in your face
i'm just ok and i feel alright
i'm free and found my solace
i'm not at lost but you are
look at you and analyze yourself
you pathetic, egocentric bastard

now i can see things clearly
i understand how things go
how i wish i could let it flow
so i can live my life blissfully

can you take it all away
when you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me.

Take It Back

Sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
i'm trying to hide but i keep my door open
escaping from reality but it still reminds me
of all the things we have gone through

i'm making some distractions everyday
just for me to forget you
no matter what distractions i come up with
it still keeps reminding me of you

*I'm tired of feeling like this
i can't stand these burdens inside
you're dragging me all the way down
you took everything from me
and i'm here to take it back

i have managed not to think of you
no matter what i do, your name shows up
reminding me all of the pain and agony that
i kept feeling inside from what you did

forgetting all of the nice things you've said
escaping from the fortress you've built around me
no need to make ammends and be cool
but i will still be here to hear you in times you need me

Better Off Alone

it's all i want, it's all i needed and now it's through
that's how it ends up and it's true
so bad, so sad, it makes me mad
the color always changes hue

i've already given up on getting through
I never question who i'm talking to
so much for being nothing
nothing really means so much
i guess it's better here off, alone

well i'm not made of steel
to absorb all the sufferings
shield myself from the agony and pain
i'm human and i have feelings so
I'm better off alone anyway

i'm singing Beautiful day all day
it makes me feel alive and unqueasy
yeah, life is ever so strange
it's really full of change, now
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

it's all because of you i'm falling into pieces
no matter how hard i try,
i can't escape these things i have inside
but i know i'll break free from these
it's just a matter of time

i'm trying to run away from this messed up place
i can't stand the way you mistreat me
you're trying to drag and break me down
so i won't hang around
i'll just turn and walk away

Now i don't recognize the friend in you
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
i know i'm better off alone here
staring at the sun, living my life
i won't let myself go down with your egos
one thing i have realized within me.

Been Thinking

Can you prescribe me something
To live the life of someone else
Coz I'm a hazard to myself

No matter how hard I try
I can't escape from being torn inside
Everything has fallen to pieces
It's you who to blame, coz i know

You'll never make me feel
The way i was feeling before i met you
Thank you for the experience
You helped me grow, but i
Want you out of my life

It's never been easy
You can't sleep, think
and you can't even breathe
Thinking of you all day
from the time i wake up
until i try to sleep

You're a manace
You're a distraction
You'll get yours
It'll hunt you down

Just don't consult me
There's nothing I would do
You're just another echo
That I hear everyday
Just don't let me see you
In pain and agony