Blurry

Now i see things blurry
everyone's just so fake
now i feel so empty
and it made everything so messed up
i was wondering what you're doing
i even imagine where you are
you said you're just pre-occupied
it made me feel so bad


i remember back then those better days
and your actions have inspired me
i started to feel secured and comfy.
i know everyone is changing
there's no one that's so real
but let me just know what you feel
coz i'm so clueless and burn out
and for me to make up your ending


Nobody ever told me what you feel
nobody ever told me what to do
nobody ever told me what to say
nobody ever made me feel alright

let me shove this in your face
i'm just ok and i feel alright
i'm free and found my solace
i'm not at lost but you are
look at you and analyze yourself
you pathetic, egocentric bastard

now i can see things clearly
i understand how things go
how i wish i could let it flow
so i can live my life blissfully

can you take it all away
when you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me.

Take It Back

Sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
i'm trying to hide but i keep my door open
escaping from reality but it still reminds me
of all the things we have gone through

i'm making some distractions everyday
just for me to forget you
no matter what distractions i come up with
it still keeps reminding me of you

*I'm tired of feeling like this
i can't stand these burdens inside
you're dragging me all the way down
you took everything from me
and i'm here to take it back

i have managed not to think of you
no matter what i do, your name shows up
reminding me all of the pain and agony that
i kept feeling inside from what you did

forgetting all of the nice things you've said
escaping from the fortress you've built around me
no need to make ammends and be cool
but i will still be here to hear you in times you need me

Better Off Alone

it's all i want, it's all i needed and now it's through
that's how it ends up and it's true
so bad, so sad, it makes me mad
the color always changes hue

i've already given up on getting through
I never question who i'm talking to
so much for being nothing
nothing really means so much
i guess it's better here off, alone

well i'm not made of steel
to absorb all the sufferings
shield myself from the agony and pain
i'm human and i have feelings so
I'm better off alone anyway

i'm singing Beautiful day all day
it makes me feel alive and unqueasy
yeah, life is ever so strange
it's really full of change, now
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand

it's all because of you i'm falling into pieces
no matter how hard i try,
i can't escape these things i have inside
but i know i'll break free from these
it's just a matter of time

i'm trying to run away from this messed up place
i can't stand the way you mistreat me
you're trying to drag and break me down
so i won't hang around
i'll just turn and walk away

Now i don't recognize the friend in you
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
i know i'm better off alone here
staring at the sun, living my life
i won't let myself go down with your egos
one thing i have realized within me.

Been Thinking

Can you prescribe me something
To live the life of someone else
Coz I'm a hazard to myself

No matter how hard I try
I can't escape from being torn inside
Everything has fallen to pieces
It's you who to blame, coz i know

You'll never make me feel
The way i was feeling before i met you
Thank you for the experience
You helped me grow, but i
Want you out of my life

It's never been easy
You can't sleep, think
and you can't even breathe
Thinking of you all day
from the time i wake up
until i try to sleep

You're a manace
You're a distraction
You'll get yours
It'll hunt you down

Just don't consult me
There's nothing I would do
You're just another echo
That I hear everyday
Just don't let me see you
In pain and agony

End

i'm starting to ignore you
just to free myself from these torments
i'm starting to erase you
to start my life anew
i'm starting to forget you
just for me to grow
and breakaway from being dragged down

i never forget it confusing as it was
it never brought me to sleep
i'm incapacitated with these sorrows
it's you who to blame
if only you knew what's inside me
what i barely feel inside
you'll feel the same as i do

i'm barely trying hard just to breathe
i'm already screaming hear
it seems like i was just jaded
i've been dying to tell you
anything you want to hear
you never showed interest and care
it hurts me so much that i could die

i was there, wherever you were
i managed to look like as your slave
i did not care as long as i see
in you that you appreciate my presence
but you never showed anything
you're just there with your ego
making me sick and tired

what i'm trying to say,
is you're numb and reckless
i'm getting over these feelings
i believe it's too late for you
to make ammends and regret
there's nothing more to compensate
everything has been torn and scorned

goodbye and goodluck to you
it hurts so bad but i have to
leave and end this pain you've caused
i don't know if you hear me
but i will always be here to hear you
everythings gonna be just fine
someday, somehow but not now

Still Here

still here


Everyone I know
Is someone I want to be
Even though
I don't really know myself


i scream your name behind these walls
I don't know if you hear me now
but i know for sure
I will always hear you

So long i've been calling you
you seem so insensitive, numb
like you just don't care at all

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
you'll be dying envying me.
I have managed to get over you.
For sure you'll suffer these torments i had
but i will be still here.

(to be continued...)

UNDO

Undo

If only life has an undo

key
Life would be easier
Every mistake can be

corrected
Every imperfections will

be perfected
Now I can't breathe
I can't think
I'm barely falling down

Here I go again, one more

time
regretting things i've

done
wishing to go back in

time
trying hard to undo

things
but never been successful
all i can do now is to

cry
and say goodbye


I told you every little

thing
Humiliate myself and

absorbed it
I was pretty harsh on

myself
just for you, it does not

matter
now i can't breathe
i can't think
i guess you just didn't

care at all

take me in then take me out
for this rejection, i hate myself
This feeling is killing me now
No i'm not conversal 'bout my feeling at all.